What does it matter?

So yeah. I think Steph is pissed with me. I know running to me one day and pissed with me the next. Okay I will admit what I said was just a little mean and inconsiderate, but I couldn't help it. It's something true. I told her guys look at me and think, "oh, cute. Let me fuck her." but when guys look at her they think, "Oh she looks nice." All I told her was that guys don't immediately think of banging her like they do to me. I really want guys to look at me and want to get to know me like she has, but she doesn't understand that. She thinks that being thin will make her happy. I'm not that small and I'm not happy. So yeah. What does it matter? I did have an interesting conversation with this guy named Caden on facebook. We had a very good and interesting conversation. It was like philosophical. He asked a question I gave my feelings on the subject he gave his. I asked a question and we did this for like an hour or two. It was lovely. I enjoyed every second. What does it matter though?