Food today. Pounds tomorrow.

I feel fat today I was supposed to be dieting but instead I cooked a lot and ate even more. I just wouldn't stop and now I feel awful. I'm really letting myself go. I wish i would have stopped. I feel super ill now. I'm super irritated to I think I might go turn on my ipod and dance for an hour or so. All the exercise I did was walking. Walking only does so much. I did weigh myself on the broken scale it said I was 150 pounds... still! I am having a hard time losing weight because everyday is a crazy binge struggle. I did do the BMI of my weight and height and I am over-weight. I am exactly on the threshold of over-weight if I lose a pound I'll be in the healthy normal range. I want to be better than the healthy normal range. I want to be THIN. That's what I want. I was watching a little bit of Coco avant Chanel (Coco Before Chanel). It was a very beautiful movie and I am so glad Coco came about because I don't know what I would do still in some of the things they were wearing back then. I liked some of the things, but Coco's style was just so beautiful. So Steph is going to her grandma's house due to problems at home. Stevie is hurting and in pain due to some slightly known circumstances.
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